Post Grievances

  I now have a somewhat finished audio interview. I'd been putting it off for a long time because it required so much effort, and it was such an exasperating task. I despised it. I still do, having just suffered through it. "But Polly, why don't you just show them what you're made of and do your best work ever even though it's such a boring task?" Actually, it's never a conscious decision whether or not I really do well on something. I may have just started out this post with, "I'd been putting it off," but that's only the best way I can describe it. It's so hard to complete a task a lot of the time if you're me or someone with my syndrome or my ADD or my whatever. Even if it's something "fun" like completing a picture, as soon as it's a task, it suddenly becomes ten times harder. "Work through it" doesn't f***ing cut it for me.

  It's kind of funny though, because my interview is about women's representation in the media. And so as soon as I finished, I lamented out loud, "I hate women." Obviously kidding--I don't. That would be generalizing. That's stupid. But in all honestly, the women in my life have proved more often than not to be often hurtful towards me. I'm not too fond of guys either, but...at least they didn't treat me as much as an outsider as the girls did in high school. I often think if I were born a guy my life would be easier. And I'd be taller. *swoons*

  Oh, and something else that I spent my day doing was giffing The X-Files. It wasn't all just grumbling. I actually learned how to gif in much better quality:

  It looks so crisp!! This scene is from "The Sixth Extinction II: Amor Fati." Giffing is fun. I haven't had much of a drawing drive lately, so I've just been doing this when I can. If you want a link to where I actually post my gifs, email me. ;)