The title for this post is from Taylor Swift's song, "All Too Well". I chose that particular line because I can relate to it a lot, as of recently. And, I've also been listening to her Red album a lot this past October. You know, Red is probably her saddest/most bitter album that she's put out there. I guess it kinda sucks that I can really relate to it so much now. But her songs on there are so truthful, emotional...so real.
Red era Swift was so good. Her pop stuff now just feels airy, like there's much less heart put into it. Now don't get me wrong, "Blank Space" is still my jam. However, hits like "Style", "Out Of The Woods"--or even her most arguably emotional song from 1989--"This Love" can't quite hold up to her previous albums in terms of heart. But yeah can't blame her, I guess. Go where the money takes you...
But back to "All Too Well"--I think it resonates with me a lot currently because of all of the stresses I'm going through. My mother is going through chemotherapy(And why do they call that a therapy, anyway? It doesn't soothe the recipient at all!). College, obviously(It actually makes me want to kill myself daily...). Loneliness. My father sneaking alcohol. 18th birthday was depressing. So even if I don't have a guy I'm hurting over, the song still fits my situation...It's just about being really sad over a situation you thought would go really well. And...it, uh, obviously didn't.
One last thing before I end this post, too. I've had this sour feeling in my gut about an internet friend. I used to be there so much for her emotionally. And the thing is, I then realized she never/barely returned the gesture back to me when I was hurting. When she was having a breakdown, I typed words of encouragement. When I was upset, she merely "liked" the status. That's not the same. And it hurts a lot. This has happened so much, and not only with her, but with a lot of people in the past. I give a lot to you. You give nothing back.
Why are people like that?
Red era Swift was so good. Her pop stuff now just feels airy, like there's much less heart put into it. Now don't get me wrong, "Blank Space" is still my jam. However, hits like "Style", "Out Of The Woods"--or even her most arguably emotional song from 1989--"This Love" can't quite hold up to her previous albums in terms of heart. But yeah can't blame her, I guess. Go where the money takes you...
But back to "All Too Well"--I think it resonates with me a lot currently because of all of the stresses I'm going through. My mother is going through chemotherapy(And why do they call that a therapy, anyway? It doesn't soothe the recipient at all!). College, obviously(It actually makes me want to kill myself daily...). Loneliness. My father sneaking alcohol. 18th birthday was depressing. So even if I don't have a guy I'm hurting over, the song still fits my situation...It's just about being really sad over a situation you thought would go really well. And...it, uh, obviously didn't.
One last thing before I end this post, too. I've had this sour feeling in my gut about an internet friend. I used to be there so much for her emotionally. And the thing is, I then realized she never/barely returned the gesture back to me when I was hurting. When she was having a breakdown, I typed words of encouragement. When I was upset, she merely "liked" the status. That's not the same. And it hurts a lot. This has happened so much, and not only with her, but with a lot of people in the past. I give a lot to you. You give nothing back.
Why are people like that?
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