Yes, my friends...I've done it. I have talked to someone on Facebook that I had severed ends with over five years ago. It was someone I've had history with--a, give or take--seven years with. I don't know if it's the meds making my heart thump, but it is thumping. (It's partially due to the meds, probably). So my heart's thumping and I'm a little wired. I think I'm nervous about this because it's gotten me thinking about why we even split up in the first place. However, it's a little funny.
I can't even remember why we split up, it's been so long. We had one last spat, and quit hanging out for a while. One of my last encounters with them was awkward. Wet snow covered the sleeping gardens between our yards, while my orange sled remained tucked snugly between their shrubs. I'm pretty sure they called, or maybe their mother did, but point being, I had to go and retrieve it. We exchanged some small talk, and I remember saying something like, "Man, I wish it would snow more." Because the weather's always been something I lazily fall back to when there's a hapless lull, and it never really is redemptive, she simply mumbled in agreement, and we parted ways. What could anyone else do?
Posting that comment to Facebook has pulled the water-logged corpse from the lake, and dropped it in front of us. She probably won't do anything, and I am not expecting anything in return. Maybe a simple "like" would be nice, but I mean, that is asking for something. Hah. More than likely, I'll be ignored and that's alright. It's better to be satisfied with putting a kind gesture out just for the hell of it. Grudges are just so heavy. You have to put them down at some point.
I can't even remember why we split up, it's been so long. We had one last spat, and quit hanging out for a while. One of my last encounters with them was awkward. Wet snow covered the sleeping gardens between our yards, while my orange sled remained tucked snugly between their shrubs. I'm pretty sure they called, or maybe their mother did, but point being, I had to go and retrieve it. We exchanged some small talk, and I remember saying something like, "Man, I wish it would snow more." Because the weather's always been something I lazily fall back to when there's a hapless lull, and it never really is redemptive, she simply mumbled in agreement, and we parted ways. What could anyone else do?
Posting that comment to Facebook has pulled the water-logged corpse from the lake, and dropped it in front of us. She probably won't do anything, and I am not expecting anything in return. Maybe a simple "like" would be nice, but I mean, that is asking for something. Hah. More than likely, I'll be ignored and that's alright. It's better to be satisfied with putting a kind gesture out just for the hell of it. Grudges are just so heavy. You have to put them down at some point.
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