So...I still hate college. I'm alone. At the very least, in high school, I had people. That made it actually a little fun sometimes. Also, mom has (had?) breast cancer. She had the surgery though so the tumor is out, although we don't know if she has to undergo chemo yet. Scary stuff.
They said I handled it well when I was initially told. I would not say the same. I think I just have delayed emotional reactions a lot of the time. I was mostly "numb" when they told me. For example: I was completely uninterested in college when I graduated high school, so I let my mom force me into this college. Only then did I realize later that July/August, I really didn't want to go there. Another example: I graduated high school, and it practically never registered mentally that it happened until August of the same year. When I finally did come to terms with what my mom had, I kind of broke down(Alone, of course).
Yes it's weird, I know. I feel like an odd warped idea of what an alien think a human being should behave like.
I just hope my mom is going to be alright and this will be the end of the whole breast cancer thing. She said she doesn't want to lose her hair...I hope she doesn't have to either.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pIz2K3ArrWk
They said I handled it well when I was initially told. I would not say the same. I think I just have delayed emotional reactions a lot of the time. I was mostly "numb" when they told me. For example: I was completely uninterested in college when I graduated high school, so I let my mom force me into this college. Only then did I realize later that July/August, I really didn't want to go there. Another example: I graduated high school, and it practically never registered mentally that it happened until August of the same year. When I finally did come to terms with what my mom had, I kind of broke down(Alone, of course).
Yes it's weird, I know. I feel like an odd warped idea of what an alien think a human being should behave like.
I just hope my mom is going to be alright and this will be the end of the whole breast cancer thing. She said she doesn't want to lose her hair...I hope she doesn't have to either.
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